I Carry You in My Heart

The First Annual Ethins Heart Still Beats Heart Ball
Ethins Heart Still Beats Heart Ball
January 9, 2010
VFW Hall
9075 Mason Dr
Newaygo, MI 49337

Doors will open at 4:30pm
A welcome will happen at 5:30pm
Dinner immediately following the welcome 6pm-7pm eat dinner
7pm introduction and about the event
715pm introduction of a speaker
745 faces of CHD video
8pm a formal waltz in memory of Ethin Twigg
805pm a thank you and enjoy the rest of our evening dancing

Dinner will be donated and catered by CSK Catering dinner will be plated and served with one glass of wine. There will be other things to drink with a tip jug donation.
There will be a silent auction and dancing after the thank you

Tickets are $75 for one or $125 for two please make checks payable for the tickets to Jessica Twigg and in the memo line write Heart Ball
This is a black tie event so dig out your tuxes and formal gowns for a great cause that will help the Hearts of many!!!
All proceeds from this event will be donated to the University of Michigan Mott's Children's Hospital Congenital Heart Center in Memory of Ethin RaiLuc Twigg 1/9/09-6/27/09
R.S.V.P. to Jessica Twigg
513 Sunset Dr.
Newaygo, MI 49337
chdhlhs09@yahoo.com
616-634-3029

Cuddles from the Heart kicked off in Iowa on Saturday please check it out!!! Our Cuddles from the Heart is winding down as well and I am getting excited!!! You can still contact me by emailing here chdhlhs09@yahoo.com

Well my weekend rounded out with an amazing meal, church, and to many emotions. Oh how am I to balance it all? On with it I suppose

Saturday evening I went to the Progressive Dinner that my church does in December. It has changed through the years a bit, but the same general idea over all. So I called on Saturday though to see if I could partake in the meal and yes there was room. I may have (OK I DID) requested a certain home for my main course. We had appetizers at the church and got our papers for the rest of the night. I went to the Saxton's for my Soup/Salad course and had an amazing salad with a roll and great people. However I did break down there and had to excuse myself from the table. I so badly want to be normal, but not be normal and ruin everyone's night in doing so. Then from there I went to the TenPas' for my main course. Mmmmm.....Marilyn makes a great prime rib dinner. I ate all my dinner and then it was back to church for desserts. Wow Pam made a great turtle cheescake!!! I am sure I gained 5 punds looking at it and another 5 eating it!!! When all was said and done I did it I made it through the rest of the night without crying once!

Then this morning it was off to church. I went right in and never had a problem. Sat with my grandparents and did not cry once. It was odd walking in though and then to know we were going to have communion as well. I love my church I have been a baptized member there for 26 years and a pofessed member for almost 5 years. However communion is always a hard thing for me as I never feel "right" enough to partake. I did today though and now regret it. I guess a personal thing for me, but maybe one day I can again without it bothering me. I just never quite feel perfect enough to do it.

Kinda weird to actually realize I am closing a part of my life on my blog. I was able to help my pastors this morning and that felt nice as they were so helpful and always there when I had Ethin besides I really do just adore their kids! HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOELLE!!! Needless to say I got through church and walked out still feeling quite empty. Not that I expect to feel filled, but normally I go and walk out replenished if you will. I walk out singing and thinking. Maybe I am still just not where I was before I guess. I mean I know I am in a different place, but I just thought....Oh never mind.

Well then home it was this afternoon and thoughts of course filling my head. Everyone is asking about a tree in my house. Nope there is no tree I have one, but it is not up and I am not sure it is going up. I am not even sure I am celebrating the day at all. At least not the way everyone else will. So no more asking and no more pushing if I decide to do it I do and if I don't I don't all MY choice. I feel so expected!

Expectations I can not live up to. I think that is where it is hard for me as I enter back into a social setting. I feel the pressures of the expectations that everyone seems to have. And many peoples expectations are so different from others! UGH!!!!!

Overall the weekend was draining! Emotionally, socially, physically, and mentally draining!! But I did it! Now I shall use the week to recover!



Prayers please for Logan, Derrick, Mira, Ricky, Delorey's, Brittney, and my family we have a big week!

Blessings,
Jessica


I Carry You in My Heart

I carry you in my heart every single day
You are with me in the morning and at night as I pray
You are with me when the sun is on my face and the moon is out at night
I carry you in my heart though you are no longer in my sight

I carry you in my heart every single place I go
You are with me through all of life's rough flow
You are with me as the snow comes down and the rain falls
I carry you in my heart as I stare at your pictures on my walls

I carry you in my heart everytime I leave our home
You are with me as I carry out my day wherever I may roam
You are with me as the leaves fall and the flowers bloom
I carry you in my heart just I carried you in my womb

I carry you in my heart and I miss carrying you in my arms
You are with me and I never will forget that smile and your charms
You are with me though you are no longer with me here
I carry you in my heart as you are forever my child dear

I carry you in my heart on the good days and the bad
You are in my heart when I am happy and when I am real sad
You are in my heart and never will you leave that place
I carry you in my heart till again I see your face

Jessica Twigg
12-7-09